terdengar lagu I will be by Avril Lavigne mengalun merdu di kamar kesayanganku.
There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye
And now I know how far you'd go
I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go
I will be all that you want
And get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me
And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
'Cause I will never let you go
I will be all that you want
And get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
'Cause without you I can't sleep
I'm not gonna ever ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want
Yeah and without you, I don't know what I'd do
I could never ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see, you're all I need?
And I will be all that you want
And get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life
(My life)
I'll be with you forever
(Forever)
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
(Okay)
I will be all that you want
(I'll be)
And get myself together
(Get myself together)
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life, you know I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything okay
liburan yg sungguhsungguh menyedihkan.What you mean to me
All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye
And now I know how far you'd go
I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go
I will be all that you want
And get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me
And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
'Cause I will never let you go
I will be all that you want
And get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
'Cause without you I can't sleep
I'm not gonna ever ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want
Yeah and without you, I don't know what I'd do
I could never ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see, you're all I need?
And I will be all that you want
And get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life
(My life)
I'll be with you forever
(Forever)
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
(Okay)
I will be all that you want
(I'll be)
And get myself together
(Get myself together)
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life, you know I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything okay
hujan berkunjung hampir tiap hari everytime.
dompet kosong dari duit hanya berisi Ktp, Ktm, Sim, Stnk, member Disk mart, member Timezone, Atm duit panas, dan beberapa recehan senilai 1300 perak.
hengpong (baca : hengpong ajee yee biar imut) sepi dari telpun dan sms.
laptop yg setia 12 jam.
kamar dengan seprai pink dan selimut abuabu yg berantakan.
teman yang ntah ada di belahan bumi mana.
semua terasa sangat membosankan.
di saat liburan panjang kaya sekarang ini aku bakal berubah jadi
dan efek samping dari kemalasanku ini aku jadi susah disuruh mandi, apalagi hujan2 gini, paling enak emang sembunyi dibalik selimut. angeeettttt mamen . . !!!! ("__")? dalam 2 hari kadang aku cuma mandi sekali itu sih kalo ga ada acara kemanamana, kalo mau pergi yya harus mandi dongggg *walaupun cuma mandi bebek alakadarnya* yang penting kan wangi, hahaha.
tapi ditengah kemalasanku ini ku sempatkan nulis kamu my diary . . . "___"
gatau kenapa aku bolakbalik memutar lagu Avril itu, kemudian aku berfikir dan berfikir . . . begitu lama berfikir dan yang masuk dalam fikiranku itu hanya seseorang. "mantanku" aku merindukannya (*___*)?
saat aku memikirkan dia aku akan kembali teringat memory setahun yang lalu ketika aku mencoba menahan dia pergi jauh dari aku, aku ga bsa apaapa tanpa dia, sebisa mungkin aku menahannya, tapi dia tetap pergi jauh meninggalkan aku. aku selalu berharap bisa melakukan apapun untuk dia kalo dia kembali ke sampingku. aku menunggu dan menunggu, namun saat aku meminta dia untuk kembali dia mendorongku menjauh dari hidupnya hingga akhirnya aku menyerah dan mencari kehidupanku sendiri yang aku tinggalkan demi dia. aku bahagia bersama dia tapi dia tertekan bersamaku, jadi aku putuskan untuk melepaskannya dengan ikhlas.
kenangan itu membuat aku sakit, bahkan sangat sakit, dan aku mulai berfikir lagi "berlimpah cinta tidak menjamin seseorang hidup bahagia". jujur dari lubuk hatiku yg dalam jauh dari kemunafikan aku masih mengharapnya kembali menempati ruang hatiku yang dia tinggal begitu saja, aku masih menyayanginya walaupun aku tau cintaku menyakitinya.
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